Friday, May 20, 2011

Well, time to say goodbye, once again.

I have found a new place to blog, with better software, reminiscent of the software I used to used for building my website. The link follows shortly, and I hope to see you there!

OMG, I so gotta tell this now!

OMG, I think I've met the man of my dreams. :D He's really sweet, and he makes me feel a way I've never felt for anyone before, and he's soooooo cute too! I can't even describe how I feel right now. :D

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Good and bad day today, with a good link. :D

Ok, the good. Found out at therapy I was diagnosed with GID and depression, which means if things go right, I'll get to go to TSB for free! I'm still so freakin excited! Now that the ball is in my court, I gotta get my butt in gear and get enrolled and the paperwork started.

Next up, the bad. I dropped a 200 pound tv on my foot. And it went corner first in too. But I replaced the cheapo Ilo tv in my bedroom with a much larger RCA tv. It looks great, and has an audio out that is controlled by the volume. Freakin' awesome. Now I won't have to get up to turn the audio from my movies down at my Heathkit amplifier. :)

On another note, I met a guy online a couple days ago. Just sent me a how's it going email, and said he collected antique radios too. Well, we've been talking the past couple days through texts and emails. BTW, gay guys I've noticed are quite eager to give their numbers out to trannies they think are hot, lol. Anyway, after a discussion about travel tonight, he really got into getting to know me. He's a good looking guy, has a great job, and has many of the same interests as I do. I'm not getting my hopes up, but it would be cool if we hit it off. And then I'm also talking to a guy not too far from here too that's pretty awesome. Something is starting to click with him.

Besides that, I got 2 ceiling fans installed today on my parents deck. OMG, do they make a huge difference out there. So worth the extra effort to get installed. Also, my phone got shut off today thanks to my ex. When she canceled her phone by accessing my account without my permission, she canceled mine too. That screw up (nothing new for her) put over $600 on my account. Freakin rediculous. But since she did it, it's not surprising to me at all it happened.

And lastly the link. Fair warning, if the aterworks come one when you watch anything emotional, get some tissues ready before you watch. What happens in the video is so my dream now. :)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Another gloomy day today

   Just another gloomy day today that drains me of energy and destroys my happiness. Nothing new there though. My anxiety attacks have gotten much worse too. I've been trying to figure out what triggered the worse attacks to begin and I figured out they started right before Tiffany and I broke up. Not that I'm saying she is the cause of them, but just how I remember it. I've always had anxiety issues, but it as controllable till then. Now I really need some sort of medicine to control them. Some attacks get bad enough I can't go outside at night without my blood pressure skyrocketing.

   On another note, I installed PCLinuxOS 2010.12 on my Dell Latitude D500 laptop. Being a Linux OS based on Redhat at its core, I was pretty skeptical of liking it at all since everything I kno about Linux as a whole is more Debian based. The install was literally painfully slow. Like hour and a half slow. From the live CD wasn't much better either. Slow, buggy, culdn't do much. But it did recognize all my hardware, so it got me intrigued enough to try it. Once the install finished, I rebooted, and botted from the hard disk. Boot time was relatively fast, on par with Ubuntu 10.10 or 11.04. Faster than Windows for sure. Be faster if I installed the speed kernel.

   The one thing I noticed I don't like, and am trying to find a work around for, is no package installer for packages downloaded to the desktop. I had to run Terminal to do that, but it was easy. To install Opera, just took the command in Terminal "rpm -i /path/to/rpm/file". I can live with that. Besides that, flash and java run better than in Ubuntu, along with a smoother experience in total.

   I think I'll be staying with PCLinuxOS for a while now.

   Oh, and another thing. I think Tiffany is still throwing her hissy fit. Every ad I put on Craigslist gets flagged, even though I never break the rules there. Her flagging the ads is the only explanation why every ad gets taken down. And it got worse after she threw her overly childish. But hey, if she's wasting her time flagging them, just means it's her waste of time, not mine. Only takes me a couple seconds to repost an ad. One of my friends suggested the idea she might be doing it because she still wanted to be with me. My instant response without having to think was "Then she fucked up. Shouldn't have done all this in the first place and it would take a miracle for her and I to get back together again." But honestly, other than her being a thief taking my clothes, life's just peachy now. It was fun when it as good, and I'll never forget it, but I've had my fill. If you're reading this Tiffany, I mean no offense but you'll probably take it anyway. I know now to never get with anyone with a religious nutcase family. They seemed to be most of the problem. They never liked me to begin with, and never did till the end. And the grandmother thought she had the right to control everything in everyones lives which was a joke. I seriously put money on it Tiffany's family rode her till she left me. I do know her mom was a good part of that, but going through like 8 marriages (I think that's right.), she's not exactly the kind of person anyone should listen to about anything at all that deals with relationships.

   Anyway, I'm getting bored typing, so I'm going to hop off here and text te new guy I'm talking to back. :) BTW, I've decided I'm straight up gay no. No more bi crap anymore, lol.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Not so good day today.

TVA Credit Union has me irked. Put $400 in my checking and for some odd reason, my checking can't be accessed at all. Gonna go raise some hell tomorrow. On top of that, I had repaired my tv. Had a bad capacitor in the vertical output section but it's acting up again. I'm about to toss it in the trash. Going to order the power board for a big flatscreen in my shop, and trash that damn Ilo. For what was paid for it, I guess it lasted well enough. But onto hi def now since I have a Bluray player now. I might as well make use of the 1080p it does. Anyway, went to work on a customer radio this afternoon, worked on it a bit till I got frustrated. When I get that way, I ork on something else, or just take a break. Took me 45 minutes to find a chassis to one of my radios, and that pissed me off to no end. Then, once I finally found it, my screwdriver set disappeared. Never found it.

But I did finish a radio. A Silvertone console that my ex bought me. here's a vid.

Sounds pretty good for the basic circuit it is. Already has a place in the bedroom. Well, that's it for now. Later!


OMG, I have more fears now than I've ever had in my life. I got Red Dead Redemption Undead Nightmare the other day for my PS3. Freakin' awesome and hard game. But there's a catch. I'm fine playing it, but after, I have the early feeling of an anxiety attack coming on. After dark, I don't feel comfortable leaving my room, let alone going outside for a cigarette or to take Ariel out. Tonight, I didn't even play it, but while talking to Benjamin online and standing on the deck in the backyard, I felt like I was gonna have an anxiety attack. Ugh. going through these changes sucks sometimes.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Decent day today.

Well, I woke up today, as usual, at the crack of noon, lol. Had the Nissan truck loaded on my car hauler already, and brought it up to the house to clear the crap out of it. Got to talk to Karen for a while while I worked. Talking to her while doing that seemed to make the time fly by and I was done in no time. Cleaned it out, and before I was ready to leave, my dad said he wasn't going to be able to go with me. Kinda sucked cause since coming out he and I seem to have gotten closer and it really helps him to get out. But I took to truck off anyway. Took it to Pull A Part instead of PSC since they were offering $13 per hundred compared to $12 per hundred. Plus, I got to be lazy and leave the wheels on it and the gas tank. Got $340 for the truck. More than I planned on really. The point in scrapping the truck instead of repairing it was just to pay my cell phone bill since it was $250 something and had 6 days left to pay it. No way I was pulling that out of my butt, haha.

Anyway, cashed the check at the credit union on the way home, and figured I'd work on my CRT tv that had crapped out. It had started getting horizontal lines across the top of the screen a week or so ago. As time passed, the area of lines seemed to get larger. So... I posted on my radio forum asking about it. One of the full time tv techs there told me a capacitor in the vertical output section was bad and needed replaced. So I tore it apart on the bed,replaced the capacitor and reassembled. Put it back on my armoire, and when I turned it on, the line were there again. :(

I was just like, screw it. Thought to myself, I'll just order the power board the big screen in the garage needs and trash this POS. Got Ariel and we went out front for a cigarette and played for a few. When we came back in, I saw the lines on the tv weren't there. Ok then... so I figured it as a fluke, and played some video games on the pS3 for a while. It's 4 am right now and the lines haven't come back yet. I'm going to give it till tomorrow afternoon before I say it's fixed. No matter though, cause I do plan on ordering that part for the big flat screen in my shop so i can play Gran Turismo 5 and Red Dead Redemption Undead Nightmare in HD.

Speaking of that, I bought the new Red Dead Redemption today. Got it cheap too. I bught it right before I worked on the tv at Gamestop and finally got their card thing that gets a discount online and in stores. Well, I had a new girl there ring me up. Not that that in its self means something bad was going to happen, but just wait. Came home, did the tv, got the case out to play, and guess what? The disc wasn't in the case. Damn. Called Gamestop, the girl that answered said to bring the case and the receipt and they'd get the disc for me. Being 20 till 9 pm, I rished down there. Made it there at 9 on the mark, right after they locked the door. The girl said if I waited they would get it when they came out. anyay I waited and got it. The manager guy gave me his card with some stuff wrote on it saying I could get a 10% discount next time I came in with it.

I've been playing it since I got home tonight. Awesome game and super hard. But it's giving me panic attacks about leaving my room though. Sucks soooo bad. But on a good note, Karen and her man will be here soon which is gonna be soooooooooo awesome! I seriously can't wait. It gonna be great once she's here. :)